Hearts Fall Apart

(c) by Héctor Humberto Amaya



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The wind will always be the wind
Budapest will always be in Hungary
but your love will not be returned
it never has been
it never is
it never will be
it hurts
does it not?
you are used to it
deep within you are tough
you are not
it is an angellic illusion
like the beautifully dazzling Floriselda
who takes your breath away every time
how it hurts to be disillusioned!
how it hurts to fall from heaven!
you will do it again
you always do
have you not learned?
you are not wanted
they make fun of you
you will never be in Floriselda's mind
in the way that you want to be
she is not going to love you
Floriselda has been trained to not love you
your endeavors to woo her are useless
Bernardo del Carpio is the one she wants
that should not surprise you
it is always Bernardo del Carpio
or someone like Bernardo del Carpio
Bernardo del Carpio repeats himself a thousand times
it happens every time
have you not learned?
you are a worthless piece of nothing
Bernardo del Carpio is nothing too
but del Carpio is made of the nothing that they like
when your heart falls apart
as it inevitably will 
from time to time if you believe in love
there will be someone to help you pick-up the pieces
and who will help you glue it back together
it is our custom to love those who do not love us
it is their nature
to love those whom they should not love
in the end you will be loved
by the one you never thought of loving
but you will not love her

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